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Brought up Sep 29, 2012

Three Little Words

I have spent the past few days running to be with my mom. She was airlifted to one of the larger hospitals in our area with chest pains. She has a heart condition, so any kind of chest pain she has sort of sends us off in terror. My daughter and I spent the night Wednesday with her as we awaited her test results. Other family members has rushed the 50 or so miles to be with her as well, but we chose to stay so she wouldn't be alone, and were the first to hear that it was not her heart, but her gall bladder. I hate that she is in pain, and is now facing surgery, but am so relieved that it is not as severe as we feared. I settled into bed at about 10:30 last night, exhausted from trying to sleep in a chair, jumping at mom's every stir. I was asleep before my head hit the pillow.

I was awakened at 3:12 this morning, according to my alarm clock, by my phone. Sweet Home Alabama is the ring tone for my best friend, and that was what my phone was playing. It was a call I had dreaded getting. The calm, distant voice was almost too much to bear. It was a voice I know in any crowd, even if the words are not understood. The raw sorrow in the calmness broke my heart. Those three words said more than anyone can say in a thousand. "Mom just Passed."

I knew nothing I could say, nothing I could do would ease what I heard in those three words. My best friend in the entire world has watched her mom slowly slipping away for a couple of weeks now. Little by little, her world was shattering. In those three words, I heard the things that has made me love her for 40+ years. I heard the love she felt for her mom. I heard the quiet dignity this woman has shown in the face of so many trials. I heard the respect she has always felt for those she cares for, whether they deserve it or not.

The call ended with three words we have started ending most of our calls with, and in them, we both said more than those words could convey: I love you. For us, those words are never light, even if they are casually tossed to our children, our spouses, or family or friends. We mean those words, but they express so much more than just the sentiment. Wrapped in those three little words, we are saying:

I cherish you.

I am honored to know you.

You have a part of my heart.

You make my life just a little bit brighter.

I don't know what I would do with out you.

Keep that in mind when you exchange those three words with someone. So many people say those three words with out really understanding what they mean. Love is the one thing that is given freely, not earned. It is something that, if truly felt, never leaves, but grows, when shared.

Someone once said that I have such a big heart. If that's true, it is only because I give my love the way I described above, and mean every word of what it carries with it.

So, to those who read this, who continue to share my journey through these entries, let me say those three little words...

I love you. I think that pretty much says it all. TTFN, my friends.


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